Strength

** Warning, this could be a blog post that makes some people not happy with the whole working mom/stay- at- home mom thing. It's my blog, and my thoughts so consider yourself warned (and negative comments WILL be deleted) :) ** I HAVE SURVIVED! I have survived my first "year" of being a working mom! Thankfully, it's not actually a year. It's only been 9 months but it has been LONG.ENOUGH. I am so thankful to God to have given me strength to be a working mom. I believe it takes A LOT of strength to be a working mom. You don't get to be with your child all day, you are not their sole care giver. You are not getting to be there to discipline and teach them when they are having issues with friends, you are not there to make sure they get a good nap and are eating well. You aren't able to do fun things during the day like library times, go to the children's museum or the park, or to even just sit and play with them. You get off work, tired and exhausted, go pick up your now cranky child at day care because they are over stimulated and have had about an hour-two hour nap when they really could have used a three hour nap after everything they have done during the day, get home, cook dinner, play for a little bit, get a bath, and put to bed, just to get up and do it all over again the next day. You get 3 hours tops with your kid each day. You have to drop them off to people you really don't know that well, let them hug, cuddle, feed, play with your child. You have to listen to them cry or hold on to your shoulder when ever it's time to hand them over. IT. TAKES. STRENGTH. Strength that stay-at-home mom's don't need. Yes, they have and need their own strength. But, they aren't the ones leaving their babies every day. They aren't the ones thinking about what their child is doing all day long. I've been and have done both.... and being a working mom has definitely required a strength that only God could have given me. I would not have made it throughout this year without His strength to be a working mom. I believe it takes a special person to be a working mom. While I hate that I have to do it, I am thankful that he has had that in store for me and to prove to me that I am strong enough to do this. I am strong enough to keep doing this. It's only going to get harder.... It's going to get harder when I have had 2 1/2 months to do nothing but cuddle and play and take care of my boy. It's going to get harder when I go back to work for a couple weeks and then get to be at home again for 6 weeks. It's going to get harder when I have to leave my 2 year old AND my 6 WEEK OLD. It's going to get harder when I realize that I was not there as much for Mykah during his first year as I was for Kayden. It's going to get harder when I go back to school to get my masters, work full time, and have 2 little boys. It's going to get harder, but I still have this strength. This strength that God has given me. This strength that my boys will then have because they had a strong mother.