Baby Mykah

Looks like baby Mykah will be here soon! I went to the dr today after having contractions at school. I was 3-4 cm dilated and very thin. This hadn't changed much since my appointment on Thursday however. I was having some contractions after they hooked me up to contraction machine but nothing consistent. The NP checked and said his head was right there. She wrote me a note to be off of work until delivery because she, like my dr said on thursday, would be surprised if i hadn't had this baby by thursday. So now we wait. I held Kayden and rocked Kayden a little longer tonight, just thinking this could be the last time i held him as my "baby". He will no longer be a baby, he will be a big boy. Brings tears to my eyes even typing it. I can't believe that he will be so grown up once Mykah comes. I pray he adjusts well and doesn't feel left out. I pray that he knows mommy loves him so much and that Mykah is not replacing him. I get so worried about it. Kayden has been my LIFE and I don't want him to feel like he is being replaced. I love that little boy so much and I can't even begin to imagine that I'm going to love another being as much as I love Kayden. I pray kayden loves his baby brother. And now... the waiting game :)